Compelling honesty here, Lindy:
Here's my thing on this: I still respect religion and consider myself something of a person of faith.
But I don't get, for example, why there's such a fixation on whether I profess every single aspect of the Creeds- why it even matters whether I agree that I believe that every single detail of Christ's life occurred exactly as the various forms of the Church say it did, what difference it makes whether I agree that the Crucifixion and the Resurrection happened precisely as I was taught they occurred.
Or, for that matter, not only how in the heaven we EVER to the idea that being a Christian has to mean being implacably opposed to abortion and contraception or, in some cases, unalterably opposed to allowing teenage girls to receive the HPV vaccine; or being coldly, spitefully unaccepting of the reality that some people were simply born gay, or bi or queer, or pan, or trans or non-binary; or obliged to rigidly defend and insist on the idea that, in a "traditional" heterosexual marriage, the man should be the personal tyrant of every home and family.
Why should a connection with a godhead be about any of what I listed in that paragraph, when clearly those ideas are much more likely to have come from the minds of bitter, spiteful life-hating self-appointed "patriarchs" than from the anybody taking dictation from YHWH.
Christ was a figure who brought a message of love, peace, and equality. Why should we assume that the harsh, judgmental, sins of the flesh-obsessed(sins of royal flesh always exempt, of course), selfish, militarist, white supremacist, even imperialist teachings of much of institutional Christianity, especially the particularly arrogant forms of it exemplified most recently by Joel Osteen, who refused to open the doors of his megachurch to people made homeless by a recent hurricane because he'd just had new carpet installed and didn't want to mess it up, has anything whatsoever to do with the gentle, sharing, inclusive message of a Jewish carpenter/fisherman from a small town in Galilee?
